Saturday 27 November 2010

Does anyone want to move to London with me?

We can get a little flat, and decorate it by painting flowers on the walls and stars on the ceiling. With posters of James Dean and Audrey Hepburn.

And we’ll have one wall, our wall of awesome, where we’ll stick photos, gig tickets, wristbands, posters, and just things we found/bought/stole that remind us of good times.

We’ll get waitressing jobs that pay the rent.
We’ll go out on friday nights to a local bar and talk to handsome strangers who buy us drinks.

Saturday mornings will be spent in bed, nursing out hangovers, wondering if we’ll see the strangers again, making dippy eggs and tea, and watching Audrey Hepburn movies.

We’ll play our music as loud as we want and dance around the flat in our pyjamas singing/shouting the lyrics as loud as we can, to drown out the noise of the city, and annoy our grumpy neighbours.

We’ll scrape together enough money to go to all the gigs we want to go to, and wake up the next morning to our flat full of people, some we know, some we just met, who needed somewhere to sleep.

We’ll have girly nights in. And girls nights out. And we’ll drink cocktails out of mugs because we never did get around to buying any cocktail glasses.


/Doesn't have to be London. Anywhere would do really.

Wednesday 24 November 2010

Safer To Hate Her.

So.. I'm in You Me At Sixs new video.
They filmed it at the Halloween show I went to. I remember Josh getting the camera out.
I was very unimpressed. My first thought was "It's pretty much the end of the gig, I look like shit."
And I do. All sweaty, with smudged makeup, and my hair looks gross.
But you only see me for a second, and the only reason I noticed how rough I look is because I paused it and stared for a while.
First reaction to seeing it; 'OH SHIT NO'
Second reaction; 'Oh. Ok then.'
Third reaction; 'Yeah, that's pretty cool.' :)

I spy me at 3.08.

Tuesday 23 November 2010

New hair cut.

Good/Bad?

20th November 2010. Leeds.

Boys Like Girls
Kids In Glass Houses
Kids In Glass Houses
Aimee & I
Me, Aimee & Kayla


The Christmas tree in Leeds was pretty. :)
Met Aimee at Huddersfield train station. Went to Yates for dinner. Met Kayla, was her first ever gig. Got train to Leeds. Found Leeds Met Uni. Queued. Went in. I got searched as per usual.. Apparently I look like a alcoholic. Went to bar. Got Drinks. Watched Boys Like Girls, loved them, was very, very happy that they played The Great Escape. Went to bar, got more drinks. Kids In Glass Houses came on. Couldn't figure out what Aled was wearing.. Looked abit like a garland or something.. KIGH were awesome. Kayla really enjoyed it even though she didn't know any of the songs. Decided I definitely prefer being in the crowd that at the barrier. Got water. Bought a tshirt. Walked back to the train station. Stopped and took pictures of the Christmas tree, and Christmas lights, and ourselves. Made it to train station. Had to get a bus. Creeper sat behind me, wouldn't leave me alone. "Have you ever been with a black man, baby?" UGH. Got back to Huddersfield. Ran to McDonalds so creeper didn't follow us. Got take out. Went back to Aimees. Watched V for Vendetta. Fell asleep half way through.

Friday 19 November 2010

Thursday 18 November 2010

So this guy I used to know in Primary School added me on Facebook.
We went to separate secondary schools.
Then when I was 15 he got back in touch and proclaimed his undying love for me.. I didn't feel the same. He basically stalked me for a while. Calling me, appearing at my house. I got really creeped out. At one point he threatened to kill himself. I was never mean to him, or cruel, I know how much it can hurt to be rejected, so I was as nice as possible. Eventually I spoke to his parents, and he left me alone.
So yeah, he added me on facebook. I accepted, being nice, and because it says he has a girlfriend and that whole thing was five years ago..
But now, he's left a comment, just asking how I am, perfectly friendly, but of course my paranoia is going slightly into overdrive.
I might just leave it a few days, then reply, and try to end the conversation as quickly as possible.

Sunday 14 November 2010

I wish I was better with words.

I'm really crap at giving advice, telling stories, or saying something to help someone feel better, or to let them know how much I care.
Hugs. And listening. They're things I'm good at.
I would quite happily hold a friend until they can't cry any longer, and then listen to them until they've got everything off their chest.
I'm good at changing the subject too, taking their mind off things.
But you can only really do these things in person. So when my friends who don't live anywhere near to me are having a tough time, I do try to say something to let them know I'm here if they need me, or how I admire how strong they are to deal with whatever they're dealing with, but I always feel like I word it wrong, and because of that I worry that it doesn't sound sincere. Or sometimes, I will sit and stare blankly at my screen for so long trying to decide on what words to use that I end up giving up and not saying anything, which makes me worry that they'll think I don't care.
But I do, so so much. I just don't know how to put that into words.

Friday 12 November 2010

The Safest Wall in Seoul, South Korea.

Young couples show their love for each other by locking a pair of padlocks to this fence, and throwing the keys over the edge. By throwing away the keys, they are showing their undying commitment to each other.

The dreamer & romantic in me loves the whole idea of this.
I hope so much that one day I'll find someone who will travel all over the world with me, and I hope one day we'll find ourselves in front of this fence locking two padlocks to it and throwing the keys over the edge. Holding hands, and preferably at sunrise.

My Halloween

So, I've talked about my Halloween, but I neglected to post any pictures.. I only got two that I think are ok (The one of Gavin from The Blackout and the one of Josh from You Me At Six.. And maybe the one of Aled from KIGH..)




Monday 8 November 2010

SKANKY HOES reunion.

Spent yesterday with Claire, Jess, Hayley & Paige in Manchester.
First time we were all together since Bristol, when Gavin from The Blackout called us Skanky Hoes for not sleeping/showering/washing since the day before in Bingley, and we kinda started calling ourselves The skanky hoes.. idk why, we just did.
I'd missed them.
I'd seen Hayley and Jess since, but not Claire.
It was fun. I met Jess and Claire in Preston, then went to Manchester, couldn't get in touch with Hayley, so we went to Starbucks, got kicked out of Primark, and spent AGES in a costume shop trying things on, then we met Hayley and Paige, played with toys in a toy shop with Paige, then went to Affleck Palace and I got my nose pierced. Finally, after talking about it for months.
Mum and Dad weren't impressed when I got home, but I love it and I'm 20 so they can bitch and moan all they want, it's staying. :)

Friday 5 November 2010

Spent today trying to ignore how crap I feel, and failing miserably.
My head feels like it's imploding.
My throat is so swollen, and it hurts to swallow.
And my eye hurts like a bitch. It's not bruised or anything it just hurts if I move it or blink, so basically to avoid any pain I have to stare unblinkingly straight ahead. And my eyebrow looks a little swollen, but not bruised.. Is it just me that finds it weird that it hasn't bruised at all?
And because of my throat infection I keep burning up.
And I've barely slept in four days, I feel exhausted.

Moaning over.

Might go into town tomorrow, get my mum her birthday present, and possibly get nose pierced while I'm there. :)

I like how my hair looked today :)
Also I'm pretty sure my nose is getting bigger :/

Tuesday 2 November 2010

So.. I did end up getting shy and awkward on sunday night. Also had a panic attack.
Aside from all that, I had fun :)
Dead Havana definitely gained a new fan, and I gained a new favourite band. :)
The Blackout, as per usual, awesome, but made more awesome with epic costumes.
Kids In Glass Houses, so so so so good :) First time I've been at barrier when seeing them. :D I wish they'd played Lovely Bones though..
You Me At Six, were good, first time I've seen them live. Fan girls behind me were a little annoying, getting hit and kicked in the head by crowd surfers, feeling like I was gonna pass out and accidentally getting punched by one of the security men wasn't much fun.
I'm really surprised I'm not more bruised than I already am, and I haven't ended up with a black eye from where the security guard hit me.
Apart from the no-so-much-fun stuff I had so, so, so much fun. :D

Smiles All Round - Deaf Havana


I loved them on Sunday night. <3
I only knew one song, Friends Like These, and I'd heard Nicotine and Alcohol Saved My Life before but didn't really know it..
I really, really liked them, definitely want to see them again soonish. / probably won't be until next year, my plans for the rest of this year, are leaving me broke. :/